Emotional Flood…
Last night I was sent a slew of text messages Trey had with someone from the day I went into the hospital until the last day Trey had his...
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Locked In…temporarily
I know I’ve talked about hallucinations a lot. But, they’re really troubling. Like bad. It’s been 18 months and they’re still there. ...
Back to (the new) Normal…
The hospitals are going back to normal operations…scary, and comforting at the same time? I have come to really really respect snd value...
Still hard to Believe…
A year and a half later … what? 15 months later … and I still expect Trey to walk in and holler ‘Hello!!! I’m home. Where is...
Benton…again…
January 15th while I was in the hospital emergency room Trey found out that his cancer had ‘turned on’ and the last set of chemo was not...
One year ago today…
It was a Tuesday. Unusually cool for June. In the low 70s I believe. Death is not something I have ever been comfortable with. ...
Writing…and rewriting, and rewriting…
My mind is locked in a circle. Bad. I keep writing the same stories over and over. Adding little bits here and there…but the same...
I need a break now...
In the past year and a half I have lost everything. Literally everything. Ability to work...gone Independence...gone Trey...gone Only...
Memorial Day Weekend...
Always fun...picnics, food, family, summer, laid back, relaxed. This year is totally different. I guess because last year was such a...
The Big 50
10 years ago (May 13) we were invited to Washington DC for the Remodeling Magazine ‘Big 50’ awards dinner. It was probably Treys...
Weird Times...
Anyone that knows me knows that I am an over thinker. Overthink EVERYTHING. Absolutely everything. Right after I was released from the...
It’ll be a few more weeks...a few more weeks...
The last time I ‘worked’ was January 13, 2020. 480 days. It’s hell. Pure HELL. Sure...everyone says, and thinks - oh man it’s be so...
Patience is a virtue...
The past two weeks have been really very difficult. Not from any one thing...just a culmination of many things, all at once....
410 days
At what point does this get easier? Everyone keeps promising it does...yet I just don’t see it ever happening. There are good days, and...
Some Days...
Are just hard. Hards not even the word. Somedays just suck. I don’t even know what it is...it’s Trey, it’s the stroke, it’s the...
Horrificult.
I was texting April a few weeks ago and she made up this word(she’s from West Virginia - the just make up words if they don’t understand)...
Benton...
Everything is alright. Everything is alright. But, I knew it wasn’t. We would come home from work somedays, and everything was so...
Covid Vaccines...
So I’ve been really Leary of this covid vaccine that was mysteriously developed overnight. I was eligible for the thing awhile back...but...
Under pressure...
Why do we place so much pressure o. ourselves? Every damn day. Totally unnecessary not needed pressure. Sure. The pressure of basic...
A year later...thoughts
I don’t know what I was thinking. I don’t know how I was thinking. Everything last year happened so fast...I know I say that over and...