TREY, THOMAS & BENTON

That’s how many days since my life totally and fundamentally changed. In EVERY way. I’m a Sheppard…I like to have things under control,...

Emotions. SUCK. This time of yeah is really hard. The holidays were EVERYTHING. Starting in October, kinda around Halloween—the house...

I can not even begin to tell you what a weekly tradition this was. I mean WEEKLY. It started out as very non specific. Steaks on...

Sometime in early March of 2020 I accepted what was happening. I say sometime because I honestly cant see that period of time clearly in...

It’s not easy. At all. The last 4/5 years have been nothing but change. I think I’ve had enough change in my life…but all I get, is...

We couldn’t fly out until Thursday night, because Benton had school…and I would not fly alone. Our flight was at 7:50pm. At 4:00...

___________________________ There are so many new readers, and this blog is about to change … so I figured this was a good time to catch...

This weeks been a tough one. I’ve already said that. But, it’s been super tough this weekend. Last year we had no way to unlock Treys...

I’m sure they will be never-ending. Those situations, where it’s the First time without Trey - or where I just feel like he should be...

Trey Day … Just accept it. I’m lost. Lost in a world of unknown. Right now we should be in the mountains. It doesn’t matter, any...

They have been numerous, they have been nonstop, they have been hard, all in different ways. Some were forced, right then, right...

Seeing the love Trey and Thomas shared, the connection they had….you could feel it when you were around them, or when you walked into the...

Sometime in August 2016, long…long…long ago. I was working three jobs and going to film school just trying to make it. Running on barely...

This…Has been a week. Nothing in particular. Just everything in general. It’s way too hot outside so I don’t get out of the house...

I have always always struggled with self esteem and self worth. Always. For as long as I can remember. It was always a point of...

yay. Like I said before this time of year was always super busy. 4th of July was always pretty low key - except that year we took my mom...

8 shakes 4 bars 128 oz of water 1880 calories in TWO days. A normal day for me is 2200-2500 calories. So 940 a day is quite the change....

A year ago I said it was all still hard to believe, and I was waiting to be woken up and realize I was stuck in some crazy psycho...