Emotional Flood…
Last night I was sent a slew of text messages Trey had with someone from the day I went into the hospital until the last day Trey had his...
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Locked In…temporarily
I know I’ve talked about hallucinations a lot. But, they’re really troubling. Like bad. It’s been 18 months and they’re still there. ...
Back to (the new) Normal…
The hospitals are going back to normal operations…scary, and comforting at the same time? I have come to really really respect snd value...
4th of July…
yay. Like I said before this time of year was always super busy. 4th of July was always pretty low key - except that year we took my mom...
Diet Day 2 -
8 shakes 4 bars 128 oz of water 1880 calories in TWO days. A normal day for me is 2200-2500 calories. So 940 a day is quite the change....
Still hard to Believe…
A year and a half later … what? 15 months later … and I still expect Trey to walk in and holler ‘Hello!!! I’m home. Where is...
Disney 2.0
Been MIA for awhile. Didn’t mean to be…this is just a hard hard time of year for me. We were always busy this time of year…family...
Living with weird hospital hallucinations and Disney…
A year ago I said it was all still hard to believe, and I was waiting to be woken up and realize I was stuck in some crazy psycho...
Fathers Day…
A weird day. Just weird. I’ve never really had a father, so I never really missed that - or struggled with it. Never had that one...
Benton…again…
January 15th while I was in the hospital emergency room Trey found out that his cancer had ‘turned on’ and the last set of chemo was not...
457
457 days it still feels like day 1. I can feel it coming on now. So, I have some time to ‘prepare’ but, how do you really prepare for...
One year ago today…
It was a Tuesday. Unusually cool for June. In the low 70s I believe. Death is not something I have ever been comfortable with. ...
Writing…and rewriting, and rewriting…
My mind is locked in a circle. Bad. I keep writing the same stories over and over. Adding little bits here and there…but the same...
Something New…
Today I started facial therapy for the nerve transplant in the right side of my face. I had a sling installed in my nose>eye...
Time for a change...
Okay. We all know it’s been a year and a half of constant change, nothing but change. And yet here I am on the verge of a major major...
All of these thoughts...
It’s been 447 days. That to me is unreal. It’s hard to even understand that this is my reality. It’s hard to believe that I haven’t...
I need a break now...
In the past year and a half I have lost everything. Literally everything. Ability to work...gone Independence...gone Trey...gone Only...
Memorial Weekend - 2
Had a slow start for a Sunday. Stopped by Boca Vista to see the Strocks. Over the past year especially it just feels like home. It’s...
Memorial Day Weekend...
Always fun...picnics, food, family, summer, laid back, relaxed. This year is totally different. I guess because last year was such a...
Monorail... monorail... MONORAIL...
I miss Treys voice. His inflections. His knowledge of everything. His willingness to let you know ... that he knew everything, and...