TREY, THOMAS & BENTON

10/15/20 It was just Benton and I. No one knew, except maybe 4 people , and they didn’t know details. It was very very private. In the...

That’s how many days since my life totally and fundamentally changed. In EVERY way. I’m a Sheppard…I like to have things under control,...

Emotions. SUCK. This time of yeah is really hard. The holidays were EVERYTHING. Starting in October, kinda around Halloween—the house...

I can not even begin to tell you what a weekly tradition this was. I mean WEEKLY. It started out as very non specific. Steaks on...

Sometime in early March of 2020 I accepted what was happening. I say sometime because I honestly cant see that period of time clearly in...

We couldn’t fly out until Thursday night, because Benton had school…and I would not fly alone. Our flight was at 7:50pm. At 4:00...

it Sucks But NOT because of covid, and face mask regulations…that actually wasn’t bad. I didn’t have to smell peoples breath. I...

___________________________ There are so many new readers, and this blog is about to change … so I figured this was a good time to catch...

So, for most all of my adult life I have had Trey to basically take care of everything. I don’t want to make it seem like I was taken...

Lately it’s been nothing me a lot lately how often I circle back, and revisit things that I have absolutely zero control over. I do this...

This weeks been a tough one. I’ve already said that. But, it’s been super tough this weekend. Last year we had no way to unlock Treys...

I’m sure they will be never-ending. Those situations, where it’s the First time without Trey - or where I just feel like he should be...

They have been numerous, they have been nonstop, they have been hard, all in different ways. Some were forced, right then, right...

Seeing the love Trey and Thomas shared, the connection they had….you could feel it when you were around them, or when you walked into the...

Sometime in August 2016, long…long…long ago. I was working three jobs and going to film school just trying to make it. Running on barely...

I’m back to physical therapy…for now. Unless Covid strikes again… Im so much better at all the stuff I have learned and know, but the...

This…Has been a week. Nothing in particular. Just everything in general. It’s way too hot outside so I don’t get out of the house...

I have always always struggled with self esteem and self worth. Always. For as long as I can remember. It was always a point of...

I know I’ve talked about hallucinations a lot. But, they’re really troubling. Like bad. It’s been 18 months and they’re still there. ...